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It's Not Like It's a Secret Kindle Edition

4.4 4.4 out of 5 stars 545 ratings

Winner of the Asian/Pacific American Award for Young Adult Literature * 2018 YALSA Best Fiction for Young Adults * 2018 Rainbow Book List * A Kirkus Reviews Best Book of 2017

"Well-paced, brimming with drama, and utterly vital."—Kirkus (starred review)

This charming and bittersweet coming-of-age story featuring two girls of color falling in love is part To All the Boys I've Loved Before and part Simon vs. the Homo Sapiens Agenda.

Sixteen-year-old Sana Kiyohara has too many secrets. Some are small, like how it bothers her when her friends don’t invite her to parties. Some are big, like the fact that her father may be having an affair. And then there’s the one that she can barely even admit to herself—the one about how she might have a crush on her best friend.

When Sana and her family move to California, she begins to wonder if it’s finally time for some honesty, especially after she meets Jamie Ramirez. Jamie is beautiful and smart and unlike anyone Sana’s ever known.

There are just a few problems: Sana's new friends don't trust Jamie's crowd; Jamie's friends clearly don't want her around anyway; and a sweet guy named Caleb seems to have more-than-friendly feelings for her. Meanwhile, her dad’s affair is becoming too obvious to ignore.

Sana always figured that the hardest thing would be to tell people that she wants to date a girl, but as she quickly learns, telling the truth is easy…what comes after it, though, is a whole lot more complicated.

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Gr 9 Up—When high school junior Sana, who is Japanese American, moves from her lifelong home in Wisconsin to California, she can socialize for the first time with other Asian American teens. She arrives at her new school with a number of secrets, including her suspicion that her father has been cheating on her mother for years. Sana is also sure that she herself is a lesbian. And now she has a crush on Jamie, a whip-smart Latina classmate, and Sana has another secret that she's sure she must conceal from her new crowd of friends. In addition, Sana also copes with her emotionally cold mother and faces racial profiling by a local cop when she's with a group of Mexican American friends. Sugiura handles the story adroitly; readers will feel Sana's onslaught of emotions, understand her missteps as she chooses dishonesty over opening herself to rebuke in several situations, and cheer for her strengthening capacity to own her identity, trust her friends, and see her parents' relationship with empathy. Major and minor supporting characters of every age and both genders are just as credibly realized as Sana as her narration unfolds. VERDICT An essential and delightful choice that realistically celebrates a teen's discovery of trust in herself and in others.—Francisca Goldsmith, Library Ronin, Worcester, MA

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I am in love with this book. The writing and voice are unbelievable. --Rachael Allen, author of 17 First Kisses and The Revenge Playbook

Smart, funny, authentically messy, and sweetly romantic. --Kelly Loy Gilbert, Morris Award nominated author of Conviction

Major and minor supporting characters of every age and both genders are just as credibly realized as Sana as her narration unfolds. VERDICT
An essential and delightful choice that realistically celebrates a teen's discovery of trust in herself and in others. --School Library Journal, Francisca Goldsmith, Library Ronin, Worcester, MA

The graceful complexity of this first-person narrative is an accomplishment in itself. Sana is a fully realized protagonist with faults and unacknowledged privilege alongside her nuanced experience of identity and "model minority" racism. Sugiura thoughtfully explores intersecting issues of race, immigrant-family relationships, queer romance, and, less explicitly, class dynamics without implying the significance of one over the others. Well-paced, brimming with drama, and utterly vital. --Kirkus Reviews, starred review

Product details

  • ASIN ‏ : ‎ B01KFBO720
  • Publisher ‏ : ‎ HarperTeen; Reprint edition (May 9, 2017)
  • Publication date ‏ : ‎ May 9, 2017
  • Language ‏ : ‎ English
  • File size ‏ : ‎ 3391 KB
  • Text-to-Speech ‏ : ‎ Enabled
  • Screen Reader ‏ : ‎ Supported
  • Enhanced typesetting ‏ : ‎ Enabled
  • X-Ray ‏ : ‎ Not Enabled
  • Word Wise ‏ : ‎ Not Enabled
  • Sticky notes ‏ : ‎ On Kindle Scribe
  • Print length ‏ : ‎ 395 pages
  • Customer Reviews:
    4.4 4.4 out of 5 stars 545 ratings

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Misa Sugiura’s ancestors include a poet, a priestess, a samurai, and a stowaway. She writes contemporary young adult fiction and lives under a giant oak tree with her husband, two sons, two cats, and a gray-banded king snake. You can find her online at MisaSugiura.com.

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Don't listen to the negative reviews!
This is a book that I've wanted to read for years but I let the negative reviews on Goodreads stop me from picking this up. It just seemed like everyone had an some sort of issue with it but now that I've read the book, I'm honestly scratching my head wondering why?! Is this book the most perfect book? No and, neither are the characters but it talks about so many important things and is so realistic and relatable and so *important* that I think people are letting the little things control the reading experience when this book is so much more than that.This book deals with a topic that we all hate: cheating. And honestly, it's messy. I can't say that I love the choices that these characters made, because I didn't. But I can say that I understand them.I think this photo excerpt from the author's note really encapsulates what this book is aboutSo read this book! Because it's important and it's deals with ugly decisions and messy teenage feelings and I think it can make us think about things that are often brushed aside. I especially think this is an important book for teenagers to have in their hands.
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Reviewed in the United States on April 12, 2018
A truly wonderful story! The characters are incredibly well developed and the chemistry between Sana and Jamie is electric. The use of poetry throughout the story as a plot device and to set the mood for scenes is especially impressive.

One of the things I found most effective in the story is one of the aspects many reviewers seem to dislike the most: the cheating storyline. Like it or not, things like that happen in life. It isn't often that you find a YA story that handles that type of storyline, either with the main characters OR with the main character's parents, well. I felt that this novel handled both of them well, with one impacting the other, and portrayed Sena's actions accurately. She made errors in judgement; she allowed peer pressure to influence the level of trust she put in Jamie; and her upbringing and tendency to avoid conflict, at least that is how I perceived it, prevented her from keeping the situation from spiraling out of control once she realized how massive her mistake had been. (Not that Jamie was blameless either... her actions contributed to the situation as well.)

I was particularly impressed with the depiction of Sena's parents relationship. It gave the story a cross-cultural aspect that many readers might have trouble identifying with. The decisions made by Sena's mother are not the decisions most American or European women would make if faced with the same situation, though, frankly, her behavior isn't that different from the way things were for women in aristocratic and upper class families world wide for the majority of the past few centuries. Putting the needs of family first isn't that odd. It is just more firmly ingrained in some cultures than others.
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Reviewed in the United States on November 6, 2020
This is a book that I've wanted to read for years but I let the negative reviews on Goodreads stop me from picking this up. It just seemed like everyone had an some sort of issue with it but now that I've read the book, I'm honestly scratching my head wondering why?! Is this book the most perfect book? No and, neither are the characters but it talks about so many important things and is so realistic and relatable and so *important* that I think people are letting the little things control the reading experience when this book is so much more than that.

This book deals with a topic that we all hate: cheating. And honestly, it's messy. I can't say that I love the choices that these characters made, because I didn't. But I can say that I understand them.

I think this photo excerpt from the author's note really encapsulates what this book is about

So read this book! Because it's important and it's deals with ugly decisions and messy teenage feelings and I think it can make us think about things that are often brushed aside. I especially think this is an important book for teenagers to have in their hands.
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Reviewed in the United States on November 6, 2020
This is a book that I've wanted to read for years but I let the negative reviews on Goodreads stop me from picking this up. It just seemed like everyone had an some sort of issue with it but now that I've read the book, I'm honestly scratching my head wondering why?! Is this book the most perfect book? No and, neither are the characters but it talks about so many important things and is so realistic and relatable and so *important* that I think people are letting the little things control the reading experience when this book is so much more than that.

This book deals with a topic that we all hate: cheating. And honestly, it's messy. I can't say that I love the choices that these characters made, because I didn't. But I can say that I understand them.

I think this photo excerpt from the author's note really encapsulates what this book is about

So read this book! Because it's important and it's deals with ugly decisions and messy teenage feelings and I think it can make us think about things that are often brushed aside. I especially think this is an important book for teenagers to have in their hands.
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Reviewed in the United States on September 13, 2018
This may be the perfect YA novel for our time. It’s set in a modern-day American school, with authentic-sounding teenager voices and texts and emojis, features a mostly-minority cast of characters in a majority-minority high school, and shows a main character making the kinds of mistakes kids sometimes make. Plus – the main character is struggling with the realization she is lesbian. Plus – lovely, well-chosen poetry that fits the plot.
Sana is vivid and realistic and appealing, and I cheered her on, even as her life got complicated. The tension kept me hooked throughout. Fascinating twist to her family life at the end. What a great theme – open secrets that “everyone” knows about but it’s hard to talk about.
Brava! Excellent book. I can see why it won so many awards!
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Reviewed in the United States on November 15, 2018
I read this book in one day. The story flows easily and has a great mix of cultural references and light hearted comedy. The relationship Sana and Jamie is very sweet and develops beautifully throughout the book. I loved this book and would recommend it to anyone!
Reviewed in the United States on March 5, 2021
the book wasn’t my favorite, but i did love the lesbian representation.
Reviewed in the United States on December 1, 2017
Such a well-written book. This writer's style is fresh, authentic, and thought-provoking. I love how you can tell just how much thought and care she put into the book and the characters. I assumed as much but when I got to the end and read the acknowledgments, it proved to be right - even down to the trig problems! It made the story all the more real. I highly recommend this book for those of us who love a really good LBGT YA novel. :)
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Reviewed in the United States on June 1, 2021
I enjoyed the book and it was eye-opening to the cultural struggles for people who are of Asian decent as well as LGBTQ as a white person it is an experience I have never and will never experience
Reviewed in the United States on August 22, 2017
Sana "coming out" is only one part of this complex, heart-wrenching study of stereotypes and struggling to reveal yourself to those you love most. Sana is a relatable character in how she finds herself messing up the best things in her life and then fights to get them back (just as awkwardly as she lost them). Even things which sound absurd to both her and cross-cultural readers are revealed to be deep philosophies rooted in love and family. Highly recommend.
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Mauren Seibt
5.0 out of 5 stars Perfeito!
Reviewed in Brazil on April 19, 2021
A história do livro é maravilhosa e a edição também. Super recomendo!
shatja
3.0 out of 5 stars Un bel libro!
Reviewed in Italy on April 28, 2021
Sono confusa sulla mia opinione su questo libro. Perché una parte di me l'ha sinceramente apprezzato e letto con piacere, ma l'altra parte di me sente che si sia perso sotto moltissimi aspetti. Molte situazioni che avrebbero potuto, anzi, avrebbero dovuto essere approfondite, non lo sono state.
La relazione tra Sana e Jamie, per quanto adorabile e preziosa, mi è sembrata essere troppo affrettata e spesso anche poco sensata. Non ho sentito la chimica, tra loro due, leggendo i loro momenti, talmente tanto erano sparsi e distanziati tra di loro.
I personaggi secondari, per quanto importanti e interessanti, a momenti sono sembrati piatti, perché si sono visti sempre e solo in relazione alle protagoniste. Che è normale. Però sono anche persone a sé e non sempre lo sono sembrati.
Ci sono state alcune scelte - una nello specifico, presa da Sana - che non ho affatto apprezzato, e che mi ha messo a disagio e non sento fosse propriamente necessaria.
E, infine, in questo libro ci sono stati diversi discorsi sul razzismo, dall'inizio alla fine, che ho apprezzato, però credo che siano sempre stati tagliati a metà, mai realmente completati o approfonditi.
Come ho detto, l'ho comunque apprezzato, semplicemente avrei voluto di più.
Nonostante ciò, lo consiglio comunque.
Daniela González
4.0 out of 5 stars Bonita historia adolescente
Reviewed in Mexico on July 22, 2018
Muy bonita historia adolescente. Toda temas que en lo personal no me som agradables de leer, pero está bonita.
Amazon Customer
5.0 out of 5 stars Coming of age story
Reviewed in the United Kingdom on September 1, 2019
This book follows the story of Sana, who’s forced to move to California from the Midwest when her father gets new job. It deals with losing friends, making new friends, family drama, racism, and coming to terms with your sexuality.

What I really liked about this book compared to other coming out YA novels was that it wasn’t the main aspect of the book. We live in more tolerant times, so it isn’t really an issue with her friends. However, while society seems more tolerant nowadays it’s less so in other ways. The book also deals with racism against minority groups and finally feeing like you belong and can relate to the people around you.
J.
5.0 out of 5 stars I had no idea I needed this book in my life until I read it.
Reviewed in Germany on August 13, 2017
If you think this book is a fluffy contemporary with a lot of glitter and cotton candy, you're wrong. The cover might give off that it's all sweet and nice but it's so much more than this. It deals with racism and stereotypes and a lot of '我慢' - enduring.

Sana is Japanese and her parents are rather traditional, not in the sense of walking around in Kimono all day everyday but when it comes to 'enduring' and 'giving more than you actually can', not bringing shame to the family. It's a concept I never encountered in a YA book before and that's something that makes this book so special. If you ever invested a bit of your time to learn about Japanese culture, you might understand that this book hits the nail head. Sana is always told to 'endure' hard situations even if they breaks her apart. Being the only Japanese girl in her Milwaukee High School she never really fit in, nobody understood why her parents are so strict, nobody knew how to deal with a Japanese girl. Moving to California changed a lot for her. She's not the only Asian girl anymore, in fact there are a lot more, many other cultures clash, she makes friends who understand how and why her parents are so strict and she slowly learns how to fit in, how to live with herself and how to grow as a person.

Jamie is an absolute cupcake and I fell in love with her right away. The romance she and Sana have is so sweet and I wanted to protect it with all my heart. They bond over poems and homework and being nerdy in general, which was so sweet to watch. I was rooting so much for them! Jamie is Mexican and most of her friends are and something this book does wonderfully is explain the difference of stereotypes ('All Asians are good at school and nice in general') and racism ('a Japanese girl hanging out with a Mexican group can't be because she actually likes them right? They sure as hell forced the poor Japanese soul to hang out with them') and it also explores that, even if you're part of a marginalized group, you still can be a racist towards other marginalized groups. It was hard to read at parts because it hurt so much to see how some of Jamie's friends struggled with pure racism. I was so furious at some point. (Don't get me started on the police officer when Sana hangs out with the Mexican group. Just don't)

Something that bothered me about Sana was that she was rather childish at some points. I know, she's only sixteen and I should never use myself when I was sixteen as a way to compare sixteen years old teens to each other but she still was rather frustrating at times but I feel, if there was a sequel, she would learn from her mistakes and wouldn't do them again.

Overall thoughts: While the book had it's very sweet moments it also was rather bittersweet at points and did so much for the LGBTQ community in my opinion. It also helps a lot with understanding Japanese culture a little better and I'm so so happy I picked it up. Expect me to thrust this book in every face.
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