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Holding on to Forever Paperback – September 15, 2019
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Secretly dating Coach Parker's daughter was never part of the plan. Neither was becoming her dealer.
ADAM
Returning to my drug-dealing past wasn't on the agenda when I accepted the full ride to play ball at Cypress U. But Mom lost her job. And my sister's medical bills are mounting. So, I've no choice but to change the playbook.
When Emily walks into my life, like a fallen goddess with the ultimate power to destroy me, I know I'm screwed. I should steer clear, but I'm the one supplying her poison of choice. Falling for her is a complication I don't need, but the more she's around, the harder it gets to walk away. She needs me, and I crave her more than the sport I love.
Now, it's all on the line. Including the NFL career that's tantalizingly close.
The stakes are high, but family means everything, so I'll take my chances.
EMILY
It's only a problem if it's out of control. And I have it in hand.
Except a certain a-hole discovers I'm using again, and he threatens to rat me out to my folks. Mom's president of Cypress U, and Dad's the illustrious football coach. Appearances mean everything to them, and I'm a continuous disappointment. They told me I'd be out on my ass if I fell off the wagon, so keeping it a secret is my number one priority.
Until the super-hot all-star QB takes more than a passing interest in me. Adam gets me, in a way no guy ever has, filling my head with ideas of forever--and now, I want more.
Dating my dealer is a recipe for disaster, especially when it's forbidden, but I can't help myself.
Because I've fallen too deep.
And the hole is too large to crawl out of.
- Print length306 pages
- LanguageEnglish
- PublisherRaven Wing Publishing
- Publication dateSeptember 15, 2019
- Dimensions6 x 0.69 x 9 inches
- ISBN-101732976783
- ISBN-13978-1732976788
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"Prepare to cry, swoon, and fall in love with Adam and Emily. This is such a heartfelt and romantic story, as well as an honest, raw depiction of addiction, that you're not going to want to miss." BookDragonGirl
"There is such tragedy in these characters lives. They have both been through so much. The way they meet is not your typical boy meets girl story. But, I'm so glad they find each other ... and I really loved the ending." Danielle. Goodreads reviewer
"Adam and Emily's journey is emotional, difficult, and ugly but their destination is beautiful. You will feel all the emotions during this read and come out complete and happy at the end." Jennifer. Goodreads reviewer
"I love this book, and I know it will suck everyone else in as well. Even with the touchy subjects, it will hold your grasp until the very end..." Paradise of Pages
"Adam is not your typical cocky alpha QB that I have seen so often in sports romances. I found his wholesomeness to be refreshing, and I developed a major crush on him." Dana. Goodreads reviewer
"This book had me on the edge of my seat. The gut-wrenching storyline of past abuse and addiction was so honestly portrayed the reader feels like they are walking in the character's footsteps. I wish I could give it more than 5 stars - this is a must read!!" Nikki. The Overflowing Bookcase
"Together, these two fabulous ladies have created something moving and magical." Shonna. Goodreads reviewer
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- Publisher : Raven Wing Publishing (September 15, 2019)
- Language : English
- Paperback : 306 pages
- ISBN-10 : 1732976783
- ISBN-13 : 978-1732976788
- Item Weight : 15.8 ounces
- Dimensions : 6 x 0.69 x 9 inches
- Best Sellers Rank: #3,691,068 in Books (See Top 100 in Books)
- #9,144 in Sports Romance (Books)
- #58,440 in New Adult & College Romance (Books)
- #252,696 in Contemporary Romance (Books)
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Bestselling author S.B. Alexander writes paranormal, new adult, and young adult romance. Her writing is emotional, angsty, and character driven, and features hot heroes stealing hearts.
S.B. or Susan as she likes to be called is a navy veteran, former high school teacher, and corporate sales executive. She’s a lover of sports, especially baseball, although nowadays you can find her on the golf course.
When she’s not writing, she’s a full-time caregiver to her soul mate of twenty-three years who got a bad deal in life when he was diagnosed with ALS. Her motto: “Life is too short to waste. So live every moment like it’s your last.”
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Prior to becoming a full-time writer, Siobhan forged a successful corporate career in human resource management.
She lives in the Garden County of Ireland with her husband and two sons.
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Emily has been using drugs as a way to escape her reality. Her family has to keep up appearances, so her drug use has to be on the down low. When she meets her new drug dealer, Adam, she never expected him to be more. Keeping both of their secrets safe is the end game, but when lines become blurred it’s hard to deny that they are attracted to each other. Will their secrets be safe? Or will everything come to a boiling point that could change their lives forever?
‘Holding On To Forever’ is an absolutely phenomenal book. From start to finish the entire story is heart wrenching and amazing. This book touches on some very difficult topics and the author’s handle these topics with delicacy but also without sugar coating either. I was not expecting this book, to say that this book is a journey is an understatement. Just when I thought I had something figured out, I was thrown for another loop! You will be drawn in from the start, and I promise if you think you have it all figured out, you are wrong, but in the best way possible! I voluntarily reviewed an advance complimentary copy of this book.
With that said, this book really does have a lot of triggers. It's not for everyone. It's very emotional. It is better for a more mature person to read. But it is such an incredible book. I highly recommend it!
Adam, the football QB, hasn't had the best out of life either. Peas in a pod these two. Adam having a sister with a terminal illness isn't easy for him to deal with at times. Trying to continue with college and football isn't easy to manage sometimes, and when things fall hard for his mom, he feels it falls on him to take up the slack whether she wants him to or not.
A football star, and the coaches daughter. The drug dealer, and the drug addict. It can be either a daydream or a nightmare depending.
This is a heavy one. Not fluffy at all. Hit on some not so easy to talk but topics. Drugs, addiction everything that comes with it (true me it's a lot) child abuse, because not all child abuse is physical. Mental and emotional is the same. And even rape, and sexual abuse. So, not an easy book to read. But worth it. Very worth it.
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Be prepared to be blown away and for some major plot twists that I didn't see coming!
From the beginning your heart just goes out for Emily. There is clearly something that she doesn't want to deal with amongst all the other things that she actually has to. Her mother clearly doesn't care for her which is so obviously even before it is 'officially revealed' and her dad is obviously going through a lot on his own. Which leave Emily to resort back to drugs even after rehab. Even though it seems like her friends are supportive and have her back, the further into the book we get the realisation is that they are actually a bit more toxic than initially thought.
But Adam enters her life and neither of them are ever the same again.
When we are first introduced to Adam he is just such a sweet, adorable guy who loves his family more than anything and will do anything to help and protect them. And we see just how much when his little sister needs more medical help and Adam resorts to dealing drugs like he did once before to help his family. Adam constantly has an internal struggle about dealing drugs, especially when Emily enter his life, but the one thing that always keeps him doing it is his family.
Emily and Adam clearly fall in love with each other at first sight. It is an unstoppable thing. When once all that mattered was his family, Adam quickly cares for Emily in a way he only does for his family. He steps up for Emily on several occasions that have you clutching at your heart and nearly crying at the way he cares for her. Their journey isn't easy between the battle with drugs they both have (from different sides but still all the same), blackmail they both go through and all the family drama.
What I do love about this book though (besides everything I have mentioned already) is the viewpoint of both side of drugs. Many people realise and can understand why people turn to taking drugs but the reasons people have for selling drugs isn't always thought of. This book gave a very interesting and poignant viewpoint of both sides which I thoroughly adored.
This crushed my heart and was such an emotional read.
Emily is so broken, on a downward spiral and Adam shows her how love can help her turn her life around.
This is no ordinary college romance story - this is beyond that!
Emily is so strong to go through what she has and still come out fighting. She has strong supportive family and friends around her.
Adam, oh he’s just amazing. To come from where he has, to unconditionally love his family and do everything for them ❤️ just floors me.
They are instantly attracted to each other, but don’t act on it straight away. It builds and becomes something so strong that nothing will break them.
I got so invested in their story that I could put the book down.
Amazing ladies, just AMAZING